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The Letters Never Sent

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Dear Jamie,

I got your letter last week. I've been meaning to answer for some time now. I've been busy.

No wait, that's a lie. I haven't been busy at all. I just didn't want to answer you.

You spoke of your troubles, the abortion, the guilt, the depression, the hopelessness and the self-hatred.

And I wonder why you're writing me. You should know better. Or maybe I used to be more of a good person than I am now.

I don't care about your problems. I wish you would leave me alone. I don't give a damn if you're hurting. It's none of my business, and I have no intention of making it so. Your letter, quite frankly, made me mad. You should know better.

I don't know why I even care.



Dear Jamie,

I thought I made it clear that we are no longer friends. What can I say to convince you?

It's not my intention to be cruel. It's just, all the things we've been through don't matter any more. I'm not interested in you anymore, happy or sad.

Don't you see?



Dear Jamie,

You say I'm your only friend, but I am not your friend. Quit bugging me with your problems. You don't need me to find happiness.

Go out, go shopping, go buy yourself something beautiful to make you feel better. I can't provide that service. Don't you know that by now?

Leave me alone.



Dear Jamie,

I guess there is no point in asking you nicely. Just leave me the fuck alone. I've got my own problems, and, no, I won't tell you about them. I won't tell you anything you've asked for, how I'm doing, what's new, how school is going. I know you don't really care.

No more than I care about you.



Dear Jamie,

Another letter from you. Maybe I should simply ignore you. You keep talking about your hurt. Now your boyfriend dumped you, and you say you can't live without him. You say I'm the only one that doesn't abandon you. Where have you been in the last few months?



Dear Jamie,

You say even I can't help you anymore.  You say that life has become too much for you to bear, and you're thinking of ending it.

So do it. It's not like I'm going to stop you.

Oh yeah, that's a terrible thing to say, but in all honesty, it's true. I don't care. It would mean that you'd leave me alone, at last. I wouldn't mind.



Jamie,

Your letters have stopped. I guess that means you finally did it. I don't believe you'd stop writing for any other reason, seeing how persistent you've been.

Yeah…I don't know why I'm writing to you. If you're dead, it's not like you're going to read this, are you?

No.

I don't know. I've been thinking about you and all those things I said to you. They were all true, even if they were somewhat harsh.

If you're dead, then I hope you died knowing that. I hope you realized you're completely alone, without the delusion that I'm still there.

Yeah, so…bye, I suppose. I doubt there will be more letters. I certainly won't write another one.

If you're dead, then I guess you've found peace, or something. I hope so, more or less. If I bothered to care.

Bye, then.

These will be my last words to you.
#38 in the 100 theme challenge

Abandoned

Sister-piece to Letters to Sheena

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sempiterna's avatar
This works really well, dark and purposely cruel, especially towards the end. It's like hearing one side of an arguement